I've had quite a weekend! It's been fantastic to spend time with my sister and her lovely family and we all had far too much good food and drink and lots of laughter. Life is short and sharing the feast with your loved ones is one of life's greatest pleasures. We're so lucky to be blessed with both in abundance in our family. I am so, so tempted to just to keep going with the treats, but I know I'll regret it! But when to stop?
I've been pondering how easy it is to get back into the unhealthy eating habits I used to have and how that's fundamentally about what goes on in my head. I bet I'm not alone! I think I knew deep down that I had to lose weight for years, but did a fantastic job of ignoring how fat I was getting and how it was affecting my health. I refused to weigh myself and played ostrich as my dress size crept up. My 'fat days' clothes became my everyday clothes, soon to be replaced by bigger 'fat day' clothes, and so the pounds piled on. My chronic indigestion and sore knees were just worry and age. But hey, I was happy and loved, so what did those things matter. I ate good organic food, butter not marge and exercised regularly, walking, Pilates and yoga, even the odd cycle. What did I have to worry about????
I had to face reality early one morning 18 months ago as I tried to get into my winter tights. I tried putting them on standing up and I tried sitting down, but I couldn't reach over my tummy. I tightened my muscles, I breathed out as far as I could, still couldn't reach. I had to lie on the bed with my legs in the air to get anywhere near my feet. It was like dressing a dying fly. I was hot, bothered, and totally embarrassed.
There I was at 51 years old struggling with one of the most basic activities of living - getting myself dressed. What would happen as I got older? This wasn't just about facing a cold winter in pop socks - I was pretty well insulated and already some way down the matronly fashion road. This was about seeing for the first time the likely consequences if I did not radically change what I ate. I think I finally accepted that
I wasn't fat because of my upbringing, it wasn't someone else's fault, I was fat because of what I chose to ate.
I knew I wanted to keep moving and active. Most of us are lucky enough to take basic things like dressing ourselves and being able to move at will for granted. I had watched my much loved Dad live with Parkinson's Disease which gradually took away his choices and his movement. Yet here was I also losing my mobility because of what I chose to eat. It felt wrong to do that to myself.
So that December morning another bit of the jigsaw fell into place and I faced the truth about my weight and began to take responsibility, to take control. I didn't start dieting right then, it was at least another six weeks before that happened, but I had finally accepted that I needed to act. The young, fit me inside was getting ready to fight back. Somewhere in my head things were starting to change, my time was coming.
I think back to that morning when I have problems getting back into eating healthily. I remind myself that it's up to me what I choose to eat, that I have a tendency to ignore facts that I don't like and that I want to stay young and fit and healthily for as long as I can. I think of what Dad would say and how he'd be right behind me, probably trying to get me to take up cricket before it got too late!
That feels better! So, a nice walk this afternoon I think and our favourite healthy chicken and veg curry for dinner - I'm looking forward to getting back to the straight and narrow!
Hopw do you get yourself back on track? Have you any ideas for how to cope? Please let me know!
Here' me and Ali after our aniversary lunch at Greywalls in Gullane, very full!
Take care
Sue
I've been pondering how easy it is to get back into the unhealthy eating habits I used to have and how that's fundamentally about what goes on in my head. I bet I'm not alone! I think I knew deep down that I had to lose weight for years, but did a fantastic job of ignoring how fat I was getting and how it was affecting my health. I refused to weigh myself and played ostrich as my dress size crept up. My 'fat days' clothes became my everyday clothes, soon to be replaced by bigger 'fat day' clothes, and so the pounds piled on. My chronic indigestion and sore knees were just worry and age. But hey, I was happy and loved, so what did those things matter. I ate good organic food, butter not marge and exercised regularly, walking, Pilates and yoga, even the odd cycle. What did I have to worry about????
I had to face reality early one morning 18 months ago as I tried to get into my winter tights. I tried putting them on standing up and I tried sitting down, but I couldn't reach over my tummy. I tightened my muscles, I breathed out as far as I could, still couldn't reach. I had to lie on the bed with my legs in the air to get anywhere near my feet. It was like dressing a dying fly. I was hot, bothered, and totally embarrassed.
There I was at 51 years old struggling with one of the most basic activities of living - getting myself dressed. What would happen as I got older? This wasn't just about facing a cold winter in pop socks - I was pretty well insulated and already some way down the matronly fashion road. This was about seeing for the first time the likely consequences if I did not radically change what I ate. I think I finally accepted that
I wasn't fat because of my upbringing, it wasn't someone else's fault, I was fat because of what I chose to ate.
I knew I wanted to keep moving and active. Most of us are lucky enough to take basic things like dressing ourselves and being able to move at will for granted. I had watched my much loved Dad live with Parkinson's Disease which gradually took away his choices and his movement. Yet here was I also losing my mobility because of what I chose to eat. It felt wrong to do that to myself.
So that December morning another bit of the jigsaw fell into place and I faced the truth about my weight and began to take responsibility, to take control. I didn't start dieting right then, it was at least another six weeks before that happened, but I had finally accepted that I needed to act. The young, fit me inside was getting ready to fight back. Somewhere in my head things were starting to change, my time was coming.
I think back to that morning when I have problems getting back into eating healthily. I remind myself that it's up to me what I choose to eat, that I have a tendency to ignore facts that I don't like and that I want to stay young and fit and healthily for as long as I can. I think of what Dad would say and how he'd be right behind me, probably trying to get me to take up cricket before it got too late!
That feels better! So, a nice walk this afternoon I think and our favourite healthy chicken and veg curry for dinner - I'm looking forward to getting back to the straight and narrow!
Hopw do you get yourself back on track? Have you any ideas for how to cope? Please let me know!
Here' me and Ali after our aniversary lunch at Greywalls in Gullane, very full!
Take care
Sue
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