We never know where life is going to take us or what challenges it brings. In January 2010 I was happy, so happy I wanted to stay that way for as long as I could. I realised that if Ali and I wanted a long and healthy life together, we had to change. I was clinically obese, had a bad back and my knees were feeling the strain. I had various health problems and I was ageing faster than my years. I looked ahead to a life I did not want. It was time to change. By the end of the year I had lost 4 stone - 56lbs. My confidence rocketed - I had taken control and it had worked. I was exercising, enjoying buying clothes, speaking up for myself.

I began to believe in myself again, I began to dream. For years I had watched marathons with admiration and a lump in my throat. In April 2013, I ran my first marathon.

This blog is about living life as a slim person, staying slim and fulfilling my dreams. Come and join me, support me, advise me!

Take care, Sue

Wednesday, 26 February 2014

Noises Off

The gradual coming together of my Yoga and Chi Running learning is a constant source of delight. On Monday morning I went along to the mindfulness meditation session at the Community Centre. It's quite a new group and sitting still type meditation is something I've never done before on a regular basis (I'm a terrible fidget). It's very different to the total immersion of retreats, and excellent for getting a much clearer focus on the importance of practice.

This week we did a guided mediation in which we were asked to focus on the sounds around us. It was quite remarkable how that shift of attention changed the world. Suddenly I could hear my tummy quietly going about its business, the cars outside, laughter in a distant corridor. As the focus deepened, the ticking of the clock disappeared and I could hear the breathing of my fellow meditators, everyone breathing in a different way. It was good to feel that connection through breathing.

I was very aware of the difference between noticing a sound, naming it and judging it. I think that might be the first time I've been able to deconstruct my thoughts in that way and it's something that I really need to practice, my thoughts tumble and leap like mad things.

I went out for a run this morning - my first since getting a chest infection which I've struggled to shake off. It was a lovely morning and I headed off down to the beach with no trace of wind - it was coming from the South West so the beach was quite calm.  I saw no one this morning until I got onto the road, just pink clouds and many birds.

About 10 minutes in I had to remove my headphones. I wanted to hear the sounds around me. It wasn't a conscious thing but I know where it came from. I could hear my breathing - a bit more laboured than usual but I was breathing! There was the sound of the sea quite calm today after all the recent excitement. As I ran up the hill past the golf course, I heard the babbling brook and the sound of the birds in their full spring voice. I heard pigeons coo, oystercatchers shriek and curlews do that amazing curlew thing that we all love.

Like in the meditation class, I heard the noises round me and let them go as I ran on, running through the soundscape, leaving the sounds and the associated thinking behind me as I ran.

I went farther than I meant to and managed just over 4 miles. It was slow with a walk up a hill and I incorporated my 'skipping along the road' routine aimed at trying to get some bounce back into these old legs.  I must look bonkers but it's quite nice to be a bit Tiggerish at times!

A shower and a good Yoga session to finish it off and I was at the desk at 9am ready to change the world.

Life is good!

Have a great Wednesday!

Take care